Mary Luna
Petrichor
I don’t get to
walk around
in my own
company
I sit in the dark
hear a man’s
voice
sometimes
a woman’s
say something
like enough
I like the idea of
sacrament
white robes
& back to dusk,
each morning
I feel a dedication
for New England
its sun
fog over
the farmhouse
moments of
unmeasured time
I see my dog
with a rabbit
in his throat
newborns are
called kits
hound eyes, tail
wagging
blood around
his teeth
there’s
something about
dying blind, deaf,
hairless,
waiting
on a mother
I tried to say
there’s nothing
here
but sounds
of poets
gathering drunk
saying lines to
one another
metaphors
for fearing
fathers
I wanted
unbroken
solitude
imagine
a nunnery
it’s a merit
to live
alongside
longing
through
the window
smell
the earth
petrichor
thunder acts
the world
is splitting
hollow air
until
comes
rains
to wash
old snow
dirtying
this house
I want
pure thoughts
I want to melt
into this light
January
salt encircling dry bones belly of a house sparrow
cataracts in your eyes walls of a clinic here is the loss of memory
the loss of your mother blowing dandelions in your mouth before your first
word when her face was the only one you recognized
reached inside foxgloves your small hands wrapped in trichome
reached for the word & found sound inchoate
here is silence & wood’s foam around a doe’s lips
your ill face a boy’s face & here wind blows through bare skin
through a moment you thought maybe you could stay burrow between
comfort & cold stay in the feeling before language before
movement your glove falls off & I laugh reaching out under the
rotunda of white
Mary Luna is a writer and educator living in western Massachusetts where she is earning her MFA at the University of Massachusetts Amherst.