Mary Luna

Petrichor

I don’t get to
walk around
in my own
company
I sit in the dark
hear a man’s
voice
sometimes
a woman’s
say something
like enough
I like the idea of
sacrament
white robes
& back to dusk,
each morning
I feel a dedication
for New England
its sun
fog over
the farmhouse
moments of
unmeasured time

I see my dog
with a rabbit
in his throat
newborns are
called kits
hound eyes, tail
wagging
blood around
his teeth
there’s
something about
dying blind, deaf,
hairless,
waiting
on a mother

I tried to say
there’s nothing
here
but sounds
of poets
gathering drunk
saying lines to
one another
metaphors
for fearing
fathers

I wanted
unbroken
solitude
imagine
a nunnery
it’s a merit
to live
alongside
longing
through
the window
smell
the earth
petrichor
thunder acts

the world
is splitting
hollow air
until
comes
rains
to wash
old snow
dirtying
this house
I want
pure thoughts
I want to melt
into this light

January

salt encircling dry bones belly of a house sparrow

cataracts in your eyes walls of a clinic here is the loss of memory

the loss of your mother blowing dandelions in your mouth before your first

word when her face was the only one you recognized

reached inside foxgloves your small hands wrapped in trichome

reached for the word & found sound inchoate

here is silence & wood’s foam around a doe’s lips

your ill face a boy’s face & here wind blows through bare skin

through a moment you thought maybe you could stay burrow between

comfort & cold stay in the feeling before language before

movement your glove falls off & I laugh reaching out under the

rotunda of white

Mary Luna is a writer and educator living in western Massachusetts where she is earning her MFA at the University of Massachusetts Amherst.